For 22 Years, I have been living with this hate for men because of what an elderly person did to me?. I was 3years old by then, staying with my mum and dad in Chainda compound.
Mum sent me to buy salt from a certain neighbour where we used to do our groceries. This man had a lot of grown daughters and everyone respected him as he was equally a church leader. We used to congregate together at Chainda Main Baptist church.
I got there and gave him the money so he could give me a packet of salt instead he said I should wait for his daughter to come and give me. I sat on a sofa, innocently waiting while he went into the other room. I believe that was his bedroom. A few minutes later, the man came out NAKED.
Me being a child, I didn’t know what that meant until he came closer to me and asked me a question as to whether I knew what he was holding was, “stroking his manhood”.
With so much fear, I said I had never seen such a strange thing. I started shivering, then he grabbed me and was almost raping me but I was saved by a customer who knocked on the door.
In shock, I ran home crying and told my mother (mhsrip) what transpired. She couldn’t hold her fire and went and comfroted him but everything went in vain. They advised her to sleep over it as I was only a child and would soon forget about it.
But little did they know that I would still, to this day, have the picture of everything. Many are times that I fear cases of being abused by even people I trust to be close to me, ending up choosing not to open up to anyone.
In 2003, the same happened from a close family member. I tried to report, they brushed it off. In 2008 the same happened from a close member but I reported him to my dad and he took action against the culprit but he still went free.
All these memories have stuck in my head and I sometimes wake up in the middle of night and ask if I will ever heal. In 2014, the same thing happened but this time am still shocked and I wonder if the person knows that am still shocked. My healing has started now that I have been able to openly share but still #broken.